This is Life!

one caring look in his eyes melted her..
how she wished to remember just that moment.
Was this reality and the rest of it just a bad dream,
Or was this a dream and the rest of it reality?
No one knew.

"Man Alone"
by Lawrance G Lux


I stood by myself the other day,
Staring out at an entire world,
Asking what place I had in it.
There was the work I had done,
The work I should have done,
And the work which need be done,
And yet, it did not mean much.
I thought of family,
And what all they meant,
Still, there had to be something more
To set the stage for an entire life.
My thoughts turned to friends
And all the times we had enjoyed,
But still I felt lack of purpose.
I turned to thoughts of God,
Though he is only to help,
Not to lead, and the jar remained empty.
Depression hit me with the lack of answer,
And I considered all the horrible events,
Still finding lack of purpose.
I turned meloncoly, and the loves
I had and could have had,
With purpose still hidden and silent.
I suddenly beheld the bright thought,
And turned back to join Others,
Because true purpose is not mine;
It is Ours through good and bad.

I am bitter about it, so much that it causes me to be bitter about other things.
But the result ultimately will be sweet - I know.

Not the most productive day at work today - but happened to talk to 3 friends & my ke ker today. All were missing for some weeks now - so had a lot to catch up, different things with different people. Didn't realise how much I missed these people while they were away - till I talked to them today. And the magic is that all 4 came from their vacation/visits whatever - just today! Bhagwaan chappar faad ke deta hai - or whatever the saying says :-) Feel so light at the end of the day - after all the "dealing with so many things alone" And I thought I was emotionally independent!!

Is learning from your mistakes as easy as it sounds? And once again I acted stupid!

rekhaon ka khel hai mukkaddar - rekhaon se maat kha rahe ho...

i hate myself when i am in a mushy mood. it's so irritating!! Get busy Vini - put it all behind you.

Sunday's paper, breakfast and a cup of strong coffee with Ravi. Seemed like a forgotten feeling. Love this quiet.. before Ashna will get up and the hustle bustle will start. Love the hustle bustle too ;-)

am once again addicted to coming back to my blog each time i wanna voice things.. seems like talking to walls .. to walls that have you in them.

When one gets used to getting attention - ignorance and rejection can be crazy to deal with. Truly said - what you give comes back to you in this life itself. Anyways guess - just gotto deal with it and this too shall pass!

20 days I wasn't in good ol Pune and what do I find when I come back! Flies! Yuck - Pune never had any flies - it is so irritating! Just hope they fly back to wherever they came from asap.